Quiet Time

It seems that since I've moved out here to WA, I have been on an ever-moving pathway. I am most encouraged to know that I've been moving forward, even if only inches. What I've been reflecting on most recently is that I am moving through seasons. Now personally, I know (and most who know me) that it's full court press when I have my sights set on something, and as the fire dies, I set my sights on another area. It can be a good or bad thing, but I see it as adventurous, which freaks most people out! How do you settle on one thing for some unlimited amount of time when you are capable of so many things? So this is where my head has been lately.

Wait- Typically, fasting is kept as a secrecy, but in this case, I'm sharing with you all that I am, because it is making all the difference right now. It is my way of being in solidarity with one of my guys in Graterford. It does your spirit some good to be on one accord with someone, and the goal is growth. I feel like the fast came right on time, because while all these moments of quiet are pretty forced, my body is also being forced to sustain in an uncomfortable way as well. My comfort zone is being set further and further away...I'm okay with that.

So, my best friend, Qadree, left for Afghanistan last week, and we talked everyday, several times a day. So, needless to say, that constant flow of venting or just thinking out loud with a bit of feedback has slowed up quite a bit. My other phone conversations have come to a halt as well. I find that I'm not used to my space being so quiet. I'm not used to keeping things in, so I meditate (if I'm not watching 24!). I'm writing and painting and praying. I'm moving forward. I am working to better understand myself and the relationships around me. People come into our lives at different times and for different reasons, and eventually we find out why, if we've been paying attention. Sometimes the issue just becomes, how long are they supposed to stay and what is it that we are to get from or give to them when it comes to purpose and growth.

I have so many goals, mainly just complete independence, but I would like to see that all the way through. I want a house for myself and to be in a position to help all the people that have helped me along in some way, without it being a struggle. Perhaps my reason for giving a try at all my gifts every now and then is because the ultimate desire is to stay with the one that gives me sustaining joy; the gift that I can utilize that will allow me to grow completely, as well as have complete freedom to comfortably move around in this life. I've never believed in doing things/working in a place that doesn't make us happy or fill us with joy, so I know that's not the life I'm destined to live. I believe in struggle and pushing ourselves, but the results should be positive/edifying.

In this quiet time, these are the things that I'm focusing on. I encourage you to take some personal time to reflect and possibly piece together a plan that will allow you to be your best possible self.